Two mild panic attacks last night as I slept.
Each one awakened me. Extremely mild. Automatic. My fleshly spirit trying to take over. Near instantly I successfully worked to reestablish my being which is entirely to advance the well being of my 204 billion children, and as quickly as it arose, the attack subsided, near completely.
When you chose a certain path to walk today were you attempting to avoid the alternatives? Probably not. You were simply choosing what you wanted, the most.
And so it was with my panic attacks last night. They reminded me that my nervous system, in automatically choosing to indulge the spirit of my flesh, was making a less preferred choice for me. So I then made a better choice.
This spirit of my flash is surely on heightened alert prior to the 11:00 AM meeting today at Georgetown Hospital. I believe now that my soul, the spirit of my heart, is more than up to the task of keeping my fleshly spirit from taking control. We shall see.
What I want, through all of this, is to keep the well being of my 204,000,000 children as the center of my being, as my reason for existence.
Successfully, so far, I have refused to make it my concern as to what I am told today at the hospital. I can't control that, I can't influence that, therefore it is not my business.
Oh, I have a preference. My preference is that they'll say that they can give me many years more to serve my children.
I'm taking particular care to use my book, personal trainer (see Library Tab), to keep the spirit of my heart as ready, strong, sharp, in charge, as possible today.
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