Regarding: 02.18.13 Cancer Update: So much to do. So little time....
From one of my dearest friends, an inexpressible inspiration and blessing in my life for many years now, upon seeing the post, above, this morning:
"This
is not good news, Loving. I'm very sorry. My friend, as I've told you
before, has been going through chemo since she found out she had cancer
in her breast about 5 years ago. It has not stopped. The chemo, or the
cancer. The chemo--or was it the radiation- gave her neuritis (where
the nerves in the legs/feet are damaged). She doesn't walk anymore.
Watch out for that! But then you will probably be one of those that
totally go into remission. That is the thought I send to the Black
Rock. Thinking of you and worrying, of course. Your Loving Sister."
My reply --------
"LOL!
OMG, please don't worry about me! I'm fine! :-). LOL! I'm just sad
that I probably have so little time left to fight for our kids,
for earths creatures, species, for Creation.... just when
they need me the most. All evidence to
the contrary I think I've been one of the few Prayers for them.
LOL. Actually, I KNOW I have been a Prayer for them, and
my only interest is in remaining so with my every last breath,
and beyond.... Yes, and Beyond.... Our Spirit never dies among
the rest of humanity, which is why it is so much a matter of
Life and Death that we get it right for them, that we leave the Right
example, the Right Spirit. It lives on for Eternity, for Good, or
for Bad.
My concern, worry, angst... for me, is ZERO. ZERO. 0. Zilch....
Not a spec, iota. That's the interesting Truth of it, for me.
My only concern is how to spend each of the roughly 600 days,
the 7200 hours I have left to serve Creation
best. I'm way, 100%, 100%, at peace on this,
but interested in any new thoughts that may come to me about
how to make each hour, minute, second.. count for all Creation -
averting Ecocide.
Not many more days to work with; and so much
needs to be done. However, I've, thank God, lived each day of,
well, probably my whole adulthood, as though it could
be my last - a wonderful intensity, a wonderful creative tension -
my only concern, each day, 'how do I make this day count as
much as possible for those in need, those who are depending on me...;'
so it isn't like this is new territory for me - it isn't, at all. It is just a
smidgen more concrete now. Truly, just a smidgen. No change
for me. I already yearn for the end of the 6 months of chemo
so I can resume the 24/7 Vigil in front of the Canadian Embassy,
then in month 9, expecting to maintain it until I just can't keep
going, when it is time for the hospice (hmmm, if one will take me).
I'm so sorry about your sis. Thanks for updating me. The Docs did
tell me that toward the end of the 6 mos chemo they'd be watching
what was happening in my fingers and toes, for damage, but that
this chemo cocktail isn't nearly as toxic as are required by other types
of chemo.
Please don't worry about me! Just keep worrying about, and
fighting for our kids, the critters, creation, our neediest, as you
singularly do, my beloved sister. You are one of their ONLY
PRAYERS.
May others finally, FINALLY, awaken to your example.
Continue to worry, be a Prayer, about that! :-)
Your Loving Brother
ps: Please pray for me that I can spark the averting of Ecocide, for our kids, in the 7200 hours or so I have left. Thanks.
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