My body really hates the plan, but the Spirit of Christ, Loving, within me, is winning out it seems. I Pray so.
My Body craves more time to recover, but it is not necessary for my body, and what is necessary is getting back to fight against the one-sided genocidal war against irreversible Ecocide, stopping my abandonment of Diane Wilson and the few others fighting for your children and grandchildren's future for you; for the Joy, Love, Life and peace of Heart of it.
The incision is still draining. The entire abdominal area feels extremely vulnerable physically, which it is. The Bowel remains unstable. But all of this should be quite manageable after these 14 days or so of healing, back on the street in front of the Canadian Embassy.
Tomorrow at 1pm is the 1st meeting with the cancer doc, in DC. I expect to be told I'll need 6 weeks of chemo beginning mid-January. If so, to my surprise, I expect to accept. If they will allow it, I'll endure the chemo while maintaining the vigil. I've been told however that they will not perform the chemo unless I'm at a place like Christ House, because the immune system gets so compromised. My current guess is that the right choice between between:
A. Reject any further delay or disruption of the vigil in front of the Canadian Embassy, my part of the fight against permanent Ecocide, rejecting the 1.5 months for chemo, thereby shortening my years of service physically here on earth by some number years, presumably. I have no aversion to this. My only concern is that I use every breath to do the most possible Good.
B. Accept the chemo, trading a 1.5 month delay in my Warring, Waging Love, in favor of the possibility of years more to Serve, years more to Live, each Breath, for our Global Neediest Family members.
My current thinking is that despite the Unassailable Truth that every HOUR, every MINUTE NOW is more crucial than at any other time in history with the possible exception of the Cuban Missile Crisis, crucial to avert Global Ecocide by Green House Gasses, my efforts are so invisible, amongst the swarm of we 300 million Affloholics, that I best serve our Global Neediest by accepting the delay, for the chemo.
I'll continue to seek the mind of the Creator, in my Heart (as must you, every breath), but this is what I am Hearing thus far.
i vote for B
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