Cancer Update - Hmmmm. I seem to have become an Apostle (Vessel) of Christ, a Son of the Creator. 12.15.12' Loving
I didn't see it coming, but I seem to have become an Apostle, a Vessel of Christ - the Spirit of Loving, in recent weeks. I'm quite sure of it.
This complicates things. When Jesus had become such a Vessel he chose to live for three years more.
I'm 2 days now without Percoset, and doing ok - able to Serve with little distraction, tho yesterday I slept about 15 hours. Bowel remains unstable - two or three problematic movements per day vs one. I remain hobbled by the signals from my mid-section that they are wayyyyyyyyyy vulnerable, which they remain, depriving me of strength and surety of movement.
Monday in all likelihood the cancer doc will tell me my life depends on a 6 week chemo regimen beginning mid January.
Am I to terminate my life maybe a decade early so I can avoid a 2 month delay that would mean full recovery from the surgery and cancer, by resuming the vigil immediately to avert irreversible Ecocide, or at best the perpetual, near total economic destitution of those children whose parents choose to have them born; as the center of their existence is attempting to survive the Hell on Earth we are NEEDLESSLY handing them? Maybe!
It may be that my vigil at the Can Embassy would anyway, maybe immediately, be temporarily made impossible by preparations and security for the Inauguration of Pr. Obama.
Am to remain among you a while longer as this Vessel of Christ, as a Prayer that others may be more likely to find this Heaven on Earth, as well; or could this be better achieved exactly by forgoing the chemo?
I don't know yet.
tough questions, no easy answer. you know what i would say but im keeping my mouth shut as it matters not a twit because you will do what your conscious directs.
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