12.27.12 Update. Bitter cold, damp. Pain free. Soooo clear.

Horribly cold today.  Damp.  Brutal wind.  I'm still damp from the rain all-day yesterday.  Haven't been able to get warm all day, tho this afternoon isn't as bad.   36 was today's high.  30, tonight.  50 mph gusts.  But the worst of the wind seems to be gone by tonight.

Very alone.  Very clear this is what is needed of me, now, and where I want to be.

I think a lot about what I'm doing.  I inquire, in my imagination, of the Creator, daily.  Always the same answer. 'Are you frickin kidding!??!!?  Loving, don't you  understand what is at stake!?!?!?  Your life is NOTHING.  The suffering you are enduring now, and headed toward when the new cancers grow, painful, ugly, deadly... IS NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  The future of your 204 billion kids is being SLAUGHTERED!!!!!!!!  Don't you understand?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?  Earth's species, gone.  Coastal living and access - gone.  Benign  weather - gone.  Plentiful food and water - gone.  Plenty - GONE..... FOREVER!!!!  Absence of wars - GONE!!!!!!! You humans have hours, days, weeks to avert this Ecocide for your kids, and grandkids.....  And Loving, you ask  me if you are on the correct path?!!?!?!?!?'

And then the tears come - frustration, outrage, sadness, grief, fatigue, despair... DETERMINATION.

Always the same answer.  :-)

What other answer could the Creator give me?

I just wish I could do  more.  So much  more.

Loving all