GWDF2 D15 Hold: On Hold the Death Fast is now. 9/11/12

I don't know what has changed, but something(s) has, and I must get my arms around it, and I need a clearer head to do so.  For an indeterminate number of days, I'll hold at D15 by going to a maintenance diet at this weight of approx 157 lbs, down 10 pounds from my starting point 27 days ago.  I expect to consume 1800 calories per day.  I expect to remain on post 22 hours per day here at the embassy working on "Actionable Essentials 2 - Lester Brown's Statements," and possibly several more in the series in the process of gaining the personal clarity I need to proceed -

As of now, "you look thinner than when I saw you 3 weeks ago," I was told Saturday; indeed I am, having adhered to 900 calories per day - half rations, my 'maintain' target being 1800 calories per day.

I don't know what has changed, but something has.  Some element or combination of:

*  Feeling the pregnancy of a next Pr. Obama term.
*  Slightly renewed confidence that he and Chu have been quietly waging war against env armagageddon with ARPA-E - see Atlantic article.
*  The slightest of optimisms that we may be better off than I thought:
a. Lester Brown's 3.0 may have been needlessly pie in the sky - calling for accomplishments by 2020 that James Hansen may not call for until 2030+;
b. On some or all fronts renewable energy may be moving faster than I or anyone thought due to technology, price points;
cwhat impact the global economic slowdown - how much time is that buying us;
d. Is natural gas giving us an added 2-5 years?

*  Where are we?  I'm getting closer to answering that, these last few weeks, so I have an acute sense that I maybe can, and need to find out with higher clarity where we are, before I should have my life terminate on less than now close to available to me information.

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