GWDF2 D11a Is it to be living death for me in a mental ward?

It would be 1 million times worse for me than dying here in front of the Embassy, but it would serve the cause just as well.  Except to store clerks, I suspect I've spoken my last words, and written my last personal good-bye's and correspondence now, whether I perish here in front of the Embassy, or decades from now having been force-fed for decades in an institution.  Yes, either would serve my Life, my next 200 billion children.  Not my business which.