Please think of it. Start Loving is pretty high on this finding and walking the Path thing. Yes.
Start Loving just hours ago wrote this confessional: SERVING FROM MY HEAD, LOST HEAVEN. And I've been writing a lot on similar topics. You would think this would be really helpful!
Start Loving, just moments after writing this confessional, and all these hopeful posts, including one's exactly on "Toxic Waste," Start Loving greedily continued the Error, the Sinning - eating like a pig, while my Darfur Family needs me starving to skeleton level. Hmmm.
Part of the problem is that I am physically in a Temptation rich environment - the Peace Center. I pick up and deliver delicious food, and I sit in a house full of it. You should see the cookies. The chocolate and ginger cookies are the most delicious I've ever tasted! And, after 90+ days of sever calorie limits, I'M HUNGRY!
So, Start Loving has plenty of excuses. But I don't want excuses. I want the Path. I want to be with the Almighty. I want to feel Clean. I want to feel what Heaven feels like - Pure, Peaceful, Loving, Connected, Live. I WANT THE GENOCIDE TO STOP, I WANT TO BE SALVATION TO THE WORLD... But, I want more cookies.
Hmmm. Although I've just been "writing" about "Toxic Waste", I've not brought into mind the "Toxic Waste Reflex," that I think we can learn to invoke. Our bodies have a quick "idea" shut-off mechanism.The most success I've had in 47 years with stopping my nail and cheek biting habit is for the last 14 weeks. Two reasons:
- I've been in a Temptation-Poor environment; marching all waking hours consumes the energy and postures that are conducive to these habits;
- I've been successfully invoking a "Toxic Waste Reflex." I thought of doing this when my brother got out of the hospital, having almost died from his smoking habit. I could see that his next cigarette could be his last. I thought to myself, "what if your next bit, of cheek or finger nail was your last?" There has been 99.999999% cessation ever since. Hmmmm.
Once the "Temptation" has more than a second's consideration in the brain, you are probably done for. The way to avoid death by "Toxic Waste" is to not let it in in the first place!
Well, after about three days of complete failure, Error, Sin... for the last hour, treating "Mental Temptation" like Toxic Waste - Instant Death [which it is] I am invoking the "Toxic Waste Reflex."
Will deliberate invocation of the "Toxic Waste Reflex" be enough to "Save" me? Hmmm. For the last hour it has.
I consider maself rather blessed to bump into yo blog but i think ma steps were guided by the lord. Am 'A christian' as u quote 'us' and i aint ashamed of the gospel of Jesus for it is the power of God to save the world.
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It is good wat you desire but i think you are more of a fanatic(follower without tru reason). No disrespect, i jus want to use this to be enlightened moo on the deception in the world and the lostness of wo/men.
U say u wanna be salvation to the world and want the cookies too. Yo humanness comes into the light.see?
Jesus cud not be salvation to the world and wear a crown of Gold...See, u cant be like Jesus. Jesus is the only way, the truth and the life.And He is more than a mere man( In the beginning was the word and the word was with God and the word was God). U probably read that in the bible seein u can quote it sleekly(Basic Instruction Before Leavin Earth)
But u cant be no salvation to the world in the same way Africa cant be a poor man's dream.
But ctill am learning something from yo blog and brotherliness militantism(Is that yo religion?)
Your truly. Jesus believer and follower
Dear Friend!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad to hear from you.
Jesus is my primary Teacher and Master. He has totally taken control of my life, thank the Almighty. I Love Him with all of my Heart. In 10,000 lifetimes I cannot become as capable as He. But, because I am infused with the same Love He has for "the least of these my family" I try with every moment to gain as much of His Saving power as possible to releive His suffering and that of His family. "Love as I have Loved," He taught us. I am trying. "If you Love me you will do greater works than these," He taught us. I am trying.
You seem troubled that I want to Save the world. I don't want to do this Instead of Jesus. I want to be His instrument. Teresa of Calcutta told this story; I paraphrase: "Someone came to me and said, 'there cannot be a God because no God would allow all this suffering and do nothing!' I replied (she said), 'God did not do nothing. He gave YOU to the suffering to help them." We are the Body of Christ - His hands and feet - here for the sole purpose of Saving the world as his Disciples.
Your Loving brother, Start
Dear Brother,
ReplyDelete"A Christian" is my beloved brother or sister. What breaks my heart is that what I experience as "A Christian" is someone that has thrown out all of the Gospel, all of the New Testament EXCEPT for one line!!!! Romans Chapter 10, Verse #9!!!!! Oh, the ones I meet MENTION other parts, but with so little interst, passion, Love or seriousness. "Saved" means DOING Romans CH 10 V 9. To me this would be like "saying" "I want to be healthy" and then sitting around all day smoking, drinking and eating cookies. NO! This would make me very, very Sick!
Your Loving brother, Start
Thanks, i think, i will have to read moooo of this blog to know the heart behind all this and ofcourse to learn. There is always something to learn. Are u still keepin vigil? Peace!
ReplyDeleteNot by might not by power but by the spirit of God. But u seem to be operating from a natural level. U are on hunger strike not a fast. U cud die u know. We cant even hold God at ransom to do His mighty works. The social campaigners n humanists can riot, protest n fast but the children of God can humble themselves, repent, pray n God will heal the land. wats happening in darfur is moooo than the eyes can see. we wrestle not against flesh n bloood but against principalities. but u seem to take matters in yo own mortal hands. wat do u say?
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ReplyDeleteWhat do I say? I pray many hours per day and what I "hear" from Our Father, the Almighty, I do.
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